this is my first shower since tuesday
"what's new?", you probably should be asking yourself; "you're a teenager, it's pretty normal if you don't take a shower for a few days"
let me tell you that it's not my case
i'm not sure if i deserve to be in the category of "normal" teenagers
this is the first time i brush my teeth since tuesday
and it's also the first time i wash my hair
it burned
my head was on fire
there was a lot of blood
my gums bled
i wasn't allow to take a shower or brush my teeth
i wasn't allow to leave my bed
or even worst
i wasn't allow to leave my house
and see the sun
my body didn't let me do all this things
and it's fucked up
i'm used to take more than three showers per day, wash my teeth more than twenty minutes till i feel that they're actually clean enough
when i don't do my routine, i can't go on with my life
i'm serious
i just can't
i don't know what happened on tuesday
i don't know why my brain disconnected from my body
i simply don't know
i don't feel nothing
i don't feel like i have to keep washing my hands or my body in general
i don't feel like my teeth are going to fall if they're not clean enough
i don't feel like my hair is full of nits
i don't know what is happening right now